a minor update

so… it’s been a while, and I’m just gonna say — things are wayyy different.
daddy found out that I medically withdrew last semester. he wasn’t too pleased, but he’s over it now. he was most upset that I was hiding it from him. I guess I should have just been honest with him. oh well.
daddy [...]

let’s get back to normalcy.

I graduated 8th in my class out of 183 students from Tamaqua Area Senior High School.
I was the 3rd female in our class ranks. I’m not going to lie; it was a pretty difficult feat. after having spent my first two years of high school not giving a shit about grades whatsoever, I had [...]

TOMORROW

so tomorrow is the not-so-big day that I’m completely over-stressing and over-worrying about. ask my girlfriend. I’m driving her crazy. please feel bad for her. I’m really annoying.
anyway, I have to get an endoscopy tomorrow at Temple University Hospital because of how many complications I’ve had with that general region of my body for about [...]

I <3 pokemon.

this is me getting back to disclosures and avoiding the undying urge to just make emo posts about how everything dies in the end anyway so this whole world is pointless and nothing makes sense to me because I don’t understand how someone could try so hard for something and then just get shit on [...]

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I just want this to be over.

exactly what I never wanted this to be…

upon starting this blog, I promised myself that it wouldn’t become just another place to showcase my supposed “emo”-ness. for some reason, I’m having a really hard time resisting this urge tonight. I’m not exactly sure why, but I can’t shake this feeling.
I can’t help but feel sorry for myself for falling into the same [...]

a list:

I have a really hard time believing that anybody truly cares about me.
I realize how self-deprecating this may sound, but it’s honestly the truth. I never realize that I actually have an effect on other people. it hardly ever occurs to me that I should take other people’s feelings into consideration before I do or [...]

an apology.

Dear everyone who reads this (all 3 of you),
I, Emily Paisley, am extremely sorry for my recent lack of updates. I have been extremely busy, and mostly without connection to the interweb for the past two weeks or so, which resulted in me being an extreme slacker when it comes to the blogging world. I [...]

every once in a while…

I disappear when I don’t feel like dealing with things/people.
perhaps I should have disclosed this after another specific disclosure, but whatever, it’ll make sense in the end. there’s an explanation for everything.
I have really bad coping skills, so when things get too overwhelming, I just disappear in hopes that when I return after a couple [...]

let’s start off easy.

I’m a lesbian.
 yes, yes I know. that fact is fairly obvious to anyone breathing in the world, but it’s important. my homosexuality has defined and shaped the person I am today. I’m fairly proud of the person I am, and I don’t believe that I would be the same if I was straight. well, of [...]