a minor update

so… it’s been a while, and I’m just gonna say — things are wayyy different.
daddy found out that I medically withdrew last semester. he wasn’t too pleased, but he’s over it now. he was most upset that I was hiding it from him. I guess I should have just been honest with him. oh well.
daddy [...]

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I went home this weekend. it was a nice change. sometimes I like being there, often not so much.
my parents were all concerned about me because my hand was in a cast and all fucked up. sometimes I like having people pity me.
I spent a lot of time at my sister’s house because both of [...]

Meet Baby Ava

Before:

After:

Meet Ava Kamryn Jones. She was born on March 17th (St. Patrick’s Day!), 2008. She is the fourth installment to my collection of nieces.
Isn’t she beautiful?!
Let me tell you a little bit more about her: She was just released from Geisinger Medical Center in Danville, PA this past Thursday after being life-flighted there a little [...]

I think this is termed “inspiration”…

it’s nearing 7 in the morning.
I haven’t slept all night, and I couldn’t fall asleep now if I tried.
I was struck with an idea of sorts, and any exhaustion I felt immediately went away.
I’ve been typing the start to the semi-autobiographical novel I’ve been thinking of writing for years for the past two hours; however, [...]

nothing important.

I don’t like using capitalization.
as you may have noticed, every time I write a blog entry the only word I ever capitalize is “I”. why, you may ask? I’ve always looked at things I write like this: nothing I have to say is important, meaningful, or worth anything; therefore, it doesn’t deserve capitalization. in the [...]

TOMORROW

so tomorrow is the not-so-big day that I’m completely over-stressing and over-worrying about. ask my girlfriend. I’m driving her crazy. please feel bad for her. I’m really annoying.
anyway, I have to get an endoscopy tomorrow at Temple University Hospital because of how many complications I’ve had with that general region of my body for about [...]

I <3 pokemon.

this is me getting back to disclosures and avoiding the undying urge to just make emo posts about how everything dies in the end anyway so this whole world is pointless and nothing makes sense to me because I don’t understand how someone could try so hard for something and then just get shit on [...]

this is a BIG one.

I have Asperger’s Syndrome.
for those of you not in the know, Asperger’s Syndrome (AS) is a form of autism. my Asperger’s effects many aspects of my life. I am going to explain the technical and put my own experiences in italics. so here ya go:

Social interaction: people with AS generally have difficulties with social interaction [...]

exactly what I never wanted this to be…

upon starting this blog, I promised myself that it wouldn’t become just another place to showcase my supposed “emo”-ness. for some reason, I’m having a really hard time resisting this urge tonight. I’m not exactly sure why, but I can’t shake this feeling.
I can’t help but feel sorry for myself for falling into the same [...]

a list:

I have a really hard time believing that anybody truly cares about me.
I realize how self-deprecating this may sound, but it’s honestly the truth. I never realize that I actually have an effect on other people. it hardly ever occurs to me that I should take other people’s feelings into consideration before I do or [...]